It's Time to Rest

I think it's time to relax....


well... term is coming to an end.. and for the past 3 years of studying here, this is the first time I've felt pressured and different, like gonna break down or snap or something when doing assignments.. and not to mention weekend work too, which has leveled up now since I've been told the word:

"As a Bible College student you're required to be involved in every single ministry"

Ouch...

well though I may think myself to be stronger than the average human in terms of psychologically, and that I could push myself harder and find the strength to fight through the hard times... but in the end, I'm still human I guess...

I felt like things were going normal, life felt normal to me... but wasn't unto an old student came back and looked at me...

the moment he looked at me, he said that something was different about me, and said that last year he could see that I was more hyperactive, always the joyful, jolly go lucky kinda person with a smile on my face, but now he just senses something to be different about me, there's no more joy, no more big crazy smile... and now it's more or less just like a more sad, expressionless kinda look in my face now...

I was pulled back a moment though.. because I though that things were normal for me as they always was.... But he started telling me of the stress people go through both as a student and in the ministry, and most of the time we'd go through dry seasons, and sometimes even burnouts, that we start to lose the joy and passion that actually was what that got us started in the first place...

I guess that's the wonder of having other people around you, to see the things you can't even see yourself... now thinking back, I think I really have begun to lose the fire, and I guess I really am going through a season of burning out, that the ministry is beginning to feel like a job more than serving, its becoming a duty more than a passion... it's getting dry...

I think I should follow he's advice, to really find some time to relax, to rest, and at the same time to find some time to get myself recharged back spiritually before I burn out.... and he adviced me to do it as soon as possible... never safe to keep on going like I am now...

Well... next week's my holidays... maybe I really should request some time to go on a lonely holiday, need to get back to what got me started, and to get my spiritual self recharged up...

That means gotta request vacation from boss.... hmmmm.....

Things are changing in my life... time to twist it back -_-"
but yes I have been working hard lately =)

thinking clearly... this is the first time someone has ever approached me to talk about something like this, could it be.... but I think God just spoke to me through one of his servants~ =)
uwarrrgh... rest rest rest~~

and at the same time, plan also a single solo trip~~ wonder where might be nice?? =)